Saturday, September 25, 2010

I Can be DJ now

In early August I made a decision to leave a job that I had been with for 22 years .I was nervous about the switch , I was leaving something that I was extremely comfortable with and according to most people , I was pretty good at . I left for a job that I had no experience at and I love it. Sure it gets frustrating at times , but when I come home ... I am home. the job stays there. I can be DJ now.

My wife will tell you that I am more like the man that she married now. I feel more like myself and for that I am thankful. I feel alot more playful now and my outlook on life is exremely positive. I wish I would have made the move a year earlier, in February of 2009. That was when things started to turn for the worse for me .

I always wanted to succeed in work, wanted to achieve promotions . I wanted the company I worked for to be the best , I wanted to take care of my bosses and the people who worked for me. Life was pretty good at Denny's until February 5th of 2009. We ceased being owned by Denny's and were owned by another company. To this day I believe that the owners of Top Line Restaurants are good people who have good hearts. I only hope that some day they will see that a couple people that they have trusted to make decisions for them , are not making the right ones.

I have kept in contact with a few people since I left and find some of the stories of the decision making very interesting. One in particular is very very troubling to me , but this is how they want to run things and honestly I am no longer a part of it , so I am going to let it be.

I am not writing this to try to throw anyone under a bus, anyone who knows me will tell you that I am not that way. I honestly want to wish Top Line all the success in the world. I have many people for whom I care about that are with the organization and I want nothing but the best for them. I write this because it is part of the process of moving on . Truth be known, I have even thought about stopping in and visiting.

I started moving on last year. Early in the year my father became sick, that forced me to take a look at myself and make some changes in my life. Many of these changes I have documented so I won't repeat them here.The main one was how I handled stress. Before the first thing that came to mind when I was stressed was having a beer, now it is going for a run.

Now the next step is getting my relationship with God back. I am so grateful that God is forgiving and I realize that that I need to show Him that I am serious , I intend to do that.I think for that reason my brother in law seems to be contacting me more, which is a good thing.

I guess the lesson in this is that if you feel that you have lost your way, and are not yourself anymore, there is always time change . Sometimes you may not know how to do it , but not doing anything about it is not going to change anything.