Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.... get me back out there!

I have to say that this has been an extremely frustrating two weeks since I ran the Erie Marathon. There has been a pain in the top of my foot that has prevented me from running, and for those of you who know me, you know that I love to run. Running has become my stress relief , it is my time to reflect on my life, it is the time when my head becomes the most clear and I can solve many of the issues that happen to be an obstacle in my life at that time.

When I run , I also feel a closeness to God. I appreciate the talents that He has given me to run . This is also a time where I pray as well.

In May of 2009 , I started running seriously again after taking 20 years off. I have seen so many things that have changed in my life for the better. Before running, I turned to drinking for stress relief. I would spend every Thursday night getting so drunk that I wondered how I made it home sometimes. The choices that I made were putting a strain on my relationships with people I cared about and didn't make my life any easier , only harder .

I felt stuck professionally as well , even though I loved the people I worked with, I was becoming increasing dissatisfied with the job I was working at. I seemed to be pressured to make it the most important thing in my life, and I did not want to make it that. It felt like I was in a tug of war and no one was going to drop the rope.

I am not saying that running was the reason all of these things have changed, but it was the start of these changes. I am also not saying I am going to go back to what was my past life because I haven't run for a while or that I am not praying , Running is just my way of reminding myself that no matter what is put in front of me that I have to contend with, I can deal with it. Even though I may fail at something, it doesn't mean that I am a failure . I am not a failure , because I tried to over come it but didn't. This is what running has taught me.

I know I am rambling a bit, and I am sorry, but I wanted to share with you why it is so frustrating to me when I can't run .